Close to about 2 weeks ago, Ch started picking names for her little brother.
We came home one night and she rushed excitedly to my protruding tummy, calling "俊源，俊源！" My mil said that during the day, Ch went through a few Chinese names with her, and decided (quite firmly) on that particular name. We were amused! What does a 3-year old know about choosing names? Imagine in the future, when others ask L, who chose your name for you? Answer... my elder sister!
Since then, she insisted that her 弟弟 is called 俊源, no matter how we try to convince her otherwise. I've tried asking around, some of my friends say it reminds them of fishball, maybe coz of the 源 word. One friend commented that it sounds nice, but the word 俊 is not very meaningful.
My fil also came up with a few names, of which we prefer 浩 (or 昊）文. ZY came up with one too, 俊文. So, now we are still deciding. We are open to comments.
So now, we tell Ch that L may be called 吴俊文 aka 吴俊源. She smiles and nods her head in agreement when we say that.
In about 23 hrs' time, I'll most probably be in the delivery ward, waiting to be induced. Having mixed feelings now, relieved that everything will be over soon and that we can finally see L. But also, nervous about what is to come and after delivery.
It's been said that induced labour is very painful, more painful than when the body goes into labour naturally. My gynae says so too. I wouldn't know if it was more painful though, coz I was also induced previously. Indeed, it was PAINFUL and uncomfortable as I was strapped on the bed most of the time, waiting for things to happen. There's also this risk of prolonged labour, which may lead to a caesarean instead of a natural delivery.
Am so hoping that contractions can start... like... NOW? Sigh... Almost everyone tells me not to worry, but I still worry. Even today, on the way for my check up, I cried in the car. Nervous about the whole delivery part even though this is the 2nd time.
Was reading about induced labour through the Internet. Everything described seemed so familiar, yet I still feel some uncertainties. Maybe, it's a mother's thing, to worry more.
Pray for me brethren, for safe and smooth delivery.
It's now 4:57am. I've been awake since 3am. It's just too hot and humid to sleep nowadays. Probably because of the extra heat generated by Lucas. Decided to forgo my sleep and do something more constructive. There's this thing about working late at night (or you can say, early in the morning) for me. I always feel so at peace with the serenity and darkness. It feels like I'm the only one in the universe! Of course, the few flats that are brightly lit opposite where I stay does not bother me much.
I've been thinking about my students. About the incidents that happened recently. Two discipline cases. In both cases, I feel so much for the boys involved. In one case, 5 boys were asked to meet my P in the conference room for being disruptive and disengaged during lessons. When my P asked for 2 of their school bags to be emptied and checked, I was so amused and surprised to see Chem textbooks in them! Haha! The funny thing was... they didn't even have Chem lessons with me today! Of course, they must have been prepared by their form teacher. Nevertheless, of all their textbooks, they chose to bring the Chem textbook! Though I was happy, this thought still lingers in my mind. Of the 5 boys, 4 seemed to be repentant. They agreed to the 3 terms set by P, and apologised to the subject teachers present for the meeting. However, can they sustain their determination to change their behaviour and attitude? Or will it be forgotten and lost after... 2 weeks? Worse still, will they feel that the teachers are ganging up against them and being very biased even though this is not our intention?
Something else I observed in both discipline cases bothers me. Do we have the right to shout at/ physically hurt another person just because we are angry or provoked? One of the boys commented that it was alright to do that. After all, they are only school children. Who doesn't make mistakes when we are angry anyway?
Such comments really scare me. So, if one is too frustrated at work/ school, is it understandable that he behaves rashly and goes around bashing up his girlfriend/ wife/ friends in an argument? Will you be able to accept it if you were the victim being hurt?
Then again, is it our responsibility to calm the provoked and to be nice to him even though he commits something wrong?
If everyone of us learns some self-control and anger management skills, the world will definitely be a happier place to live in.
Regardless of age.
I've been thinking about my students. About the incidents that happened recently. Two discipline cases. In both cases, I feel so much for the boys involved. In one case, 5 boys were asked to meet my P in the conference room for being disruptive and disengaged during lessons. When my P asked for 2 of their school bags to be emptied and checked, I was so amused and surprised to see Chem textbooks in them! Haha! The funny thing was... they didn't even have Chem lessons with me today! Of course, they must have been prepared by their form teacher. Nevertheless, of all their textbooks, they chose to bring the Chem textbook! Though I was happy, this thought still lingers in my mind. Of the 5 boys, 4 seemed to be repentant. They agreed to the 3 terms set by P, and apologised to the subject teachers present for the meeting. However, can they sustain their determination to change their behaviour and attitude? Or will it be forgotten and lost after... 2 weeks? Worse still, will they feel that the teachers are ganging up against them and being very biased even though this is not our intention?
Something else I observed in both discipline cases bothers me. Do we have the right to shout at/ physically hurt another person just because we are angry or provoked? One of the boys commented that it was alright to do that. After all, they are only school children. Who doesn't make mistakes when we are angry anyway?
Such comments really scare me. So, if one is too frustrated at work/ school, is it understandable that he behaves rashly and goes around bashing up his girlfriend/ wife/ friends in an argument? Will you be able to accept it if you were the victim being hurt?
Then again, is it our responsibility to calm the provoked and to be nice to him even though he commits something wrong?
If everyone of us learns some self-control and anger management skills, the world will definitely be a happier place to live in.
Regardless of age.
I left my university Biology textbook (Starr and Taggart) on my dining table last Sat and Ch asked to read it. So, I took the opportunity to explain about the components of the human blood. Wonder what my Bio students will say if they see this???
